Former GnR drummer Steven reveals drug addiction hell led him to try taking his own life on two separate occasions

Steve Adler

Happier: Steven Adler

Former Guns n’Roses drummer Steven Adler has revealed he tried to commit suicide twice as he struggled with drug addiction issues.

And to mark the end of the worst chapter of his life he published a book about his experiences, read it – then threw it in a fire.

Adler, 46, became the first member of GnR’s classic lineup to leave the band when he was fired in 1990 over his inability to record because of his heroin addiction.

Since then he’s spent many years trying to clean himself up – but now says the pressure led him to attempt taking his own life on two separate occasions.

Adler tells Rukus magazine: “You’d think it’s easy to do, but let me tell you: it’s not easy. Both times I tried killing myself I took 100 valium, drank a big bottle of Jagermeister and shot up three quarters of a gram of heroin.

“The only thing that happened to me was I had the best night’s sleep of my life.

“I got sick and tired of feeling down. You don’t realise until you’re getting sober, but the reason you’re depressed all the time is the drugs. Cocaine and heroin are depressants. Valium is a depressant. Alcohol and cigarettes are depressants.”

But Adler is now proud to report he’s clean and sober, having completed a second stint on reality TV show Celebrity Rehab.

“Since i got off the heroin, crack and pills my life has been a turnaround,” he says. “I was still drinking Jagermeister and smoking pot – I wasn’t able to make the full commitment until I met Celebrity Rehab’s Dr Drew.

“Then I made a 180-degree turn in my life and made the complete change; I got off the rest of the stuff.

“It’s amazing how small an effort it takes if you just give a little when you want to change. I never in my life would have imagined myself saying, ‘I enjoy being in rehab.’ I was here with a bunch of crazies, but they were all good people.”

Adler says he’s made up with the friends and bandmates he let down during his years of addiction, and that was one of the reasons for writing his book My Appetite for Destruction.

He explains: “I was wasting my life being angry with them. It took me until I got sober to realise they hadn’t let me down; I’d let them down. In the book I take 100% responsibility for my life and for everything that happened.

“It came out when I was on tour. I read it on the bus, then when I came home from tour I built a big fire in the fireplace and tossed the book in. I let my past go. I’m thankful I came out of my past, but I already lived it so I let it go.”

Adler reflects that, paradoxically, the waste of two decades of his life may have done him good: “I feel you get stronger after surviving shit like that. Right now I’m the happiest I’ve been in my whole life. I don’t think I’d be happier than I am now if I hadn’t ruined those 20 years.”

His band Adler’s Appetite will be touring throughout the summer with a new lineup. He says: “I’m really pleased with it. Everything has been going great with rehearsals and between the band. It’s more fun than ever. We’re doing a couple of GnR turned we haven’t done in the past and we’ve got a whole new show together.”

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